Today in class I saw a clip of the movie Titanic. Jack was dinning in first class with his future lover and the rest of the first class guests. He had no shame. He boasted proudly that he slept under a bridge the night before as the waiter gave him a helping of caviar. Life for him was an adventure. Where his next meal or next sleep would come from he had no idea. It's a romantic notion that touched me.
I recently, broke up with my long term girlfriend, but that is not why I am writing this blog. The Titanic clip made me realize something. When we first met, I threw caution to the wind and was hungry for experience and adventure. During school, however I was a different person. A hermit that would gladly spend up to 12 hours in front of a computer screen studying and watching movies at the same time. I became a person that would rather keep two dollars in my pocket than have fun at Disneyland. This is a simplification but when I saw that Titanic clip it hit me.
I am writing this blog for myself. I don't want to forget to be hungry for adventure. I am happy to sleep in a comfortable bed, but I don't want to be the stiff with the silver stick up his ass like the gentlemen beside Jack.
When I was in high school my goal was to be remembered. Now I think it is to live, but I still figuring that out. I know that I have a list of things I want like to learn another language go to Africa; and that I am tired of spending countless hours on a desk for a 3.9, when I could be happy with myself with less from school and more from my life...
Here is the video. It's about Karl Marx:
The section I was talking about is 2 minutes in.
I think it's great that you're taking a negative experience and making it a positive journey for yourself. Don't be so hard on yourself though - it's not like you sat in front of the computer screen all day and every day - you've always been a pretty driven and amazing guy and I <3 who you were then and who you are now and who you will be tomorrow.
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